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I have to agree with Viv on this one (see blog listing in right column) - what is with titles? A pain in the butt. Sometimes I like them, but EVERY SINGLE POST? Too hard! Lol.

OK, so I have had a long day. Of course, cos it was a Tuesday. Four kids day. But I have to say, they were actually extremely tolerable today ;) Just kidding, they were good for me. Well behaved and I didn't even have to take them outside. It was actually a bit cold - hard to believe after yesterday. And why am I talking about the weather? Because I'm feeling pretty random on my second glass of wine.

So I decided to start doing Emily 's playing card mini album project thingy. Sorry I can't be bothered linking to her blog right now, Emily Falconbridge, very funky scrapping chica, easy to find ;) ANYHOW she has started this project where you decorate a single playing card each week, since 52 cards in a deck = 52 weeks. Pretty cool. And she posts a question or theme each week. Since I just got my cards the other day, I had to catch up, since the project started at the beginning of the year. So today I did the first three week's worth.

The first week was 'something you are proud of'. Since it is supposed to be a 'deck of me' kind of album I decided not to use my kids, my sisters, my cousin Bec or anything like that to be proud of. I had to think a lot actually. I decided to say that I am a smart person. The journalling on the back says 'Well, I don't know my IQ, but I know that I am a smart person, and it's ok to be proud of that'. Well - shouldn't it be? I am trying hard to acknowledge my strengths, as I am very well acquainted with my weaknesses! No need to dwell on those... at least not in public, LOL.

Man, this is turning into a long post. Anyhow, the second week was 'What is powerful to you?'. My card says 'Motherhood', and the journalling says 'To me, being a mother is a powerful thing, inspiring the sweetest and fiercest of loves'. When thinking about this, I want to remember that I desperately wanted to be a mother, when I was apparently infertile (at 21). I felt it was part of my makeup that I would be a mum, and now that I am of course it seems true. But I also want to be clear that not having actual physically present children does not mean you are not a mother. I know for a fact that mother's who miscarry - however early - often feel the same incredibly sweet tenderness for their tiny embryo / foetus, and the same fierce defensiveness when anyone implies there was anything wrong with it (as though that makes a miscarriage easier to accept). Even if they never give birth, these women are mothers too. Just because it is in their hearts and we can't see it, it doesn't mean it's not true.

Alright, if anyone is game enough to keep reading - I am very uninhibited with my posting this evening! Back to the topic - the third week of the project was to complete a sentence/ phrase beginning with 'I am'. I wrote 'I am an introvert, always'. I really feel like no one can understand me or even like me really without understanding that fact. It is so integral to my personality. Anyhow, the journalling actually says this: 'My personality type is INFJ, with very strong levels of 'introvert' and 'intuitive'. I need solitude regularly to recharge my emotional energies.'

On a lighter note, how cute is this couple? I am photographing their wedding in March, and just met them on Saturday. Kieran is so cute with her crinkly nose when she laughs. Luckily I seemed to make her laugh so it should be super fun to shoot their wedding day.

Also Jude was really cute today - he got a bit miserable after Ash hit him on the head with a cardboard block (Alannah tells me - I wasn't in the room). So I had this spare photo from a layout of Kell holding Jude and gave it to him. He was all gorgeous, showing the other kids the photo and saying 'mumma' with a cute little smile. Gotta love him.